The Phenom Piccoli Papers

 ...Just me with thoughts and existence  Dear family,  I have not written a post in a while. To bring you up to speed, my mom passed on 03/07/2019 and I have been in fog since then. Last month is when I truly woke out of my stupor. Its debilitating and frustrating when you are unable to function like normal.  Even in these times, what is normal? That is one of the questions I deal with on a daily basis. I am normally a positive person, but when I  have a soul cry and remain in that place/space/time...it does something to my psyche.  My psyche is different. I am different.  Nothing is the same or remains as it used to be. We all have painful growth (or stagnant) moments of a place or space we have not ever imagined.  The " this day will come " (whatever the case maybe) type of event/moment is now here. Nothing can prepare you for it. Nothing can walk you thru it. Nothing and no one can take away the pain that brews inside you.  This is my trut...

     When trying to remain or maintain focus with anything; it can be challenging. The distractions of life come into play and expect you to maintain your positive attitude in any situation, deadlines, whatever the case may be; you are EXPECTED to maintain your energy and produce the best possible you under any circumstance. Whew! That was a mouthful. So, not so.You can have everything going perfectly for what you are focused on and life can pass you by. You forget to breathe, to keep yourself up and going, etc. Or, it can be the exact opposite. Either way, maintaining focus can be a catch 22.  How can you resolve this issue?   There are no definitive scientific or mathematical answers that I know of just off the top of my dome. I do know doing this may work. Ask this question:  Will focusing on this (item, project, issue, assignment, person, etc.) be beneficial to me?  ⇛If the answer is YES, then it maybe worth your time. Go all in!...